Hoping to dance with you again!

Gone are the days where lost made me weak and sorrows filled deep within.
Gone are the days where laughter turned into tears and mourning dominated.
Gone are the days where hugs and kisses are plain sailing and now is out of the window.
But since those days are gone, now is the most important and the "NOW" is what matters most.

A month from now it will be Papa's 1st death anniversary and it seems like everything is still fresh. Arriving home and seeing you doing your usual household chores, laughing, watching TV or playing around the kids in our neighborhood has been my assumption. I don't buy the idea of late displaying of affection or postponing the present emotions, because there's no "late" for a sincere heart.

Anyways, people have said, "Everything has its own reason.". But whatever that reason or reasons of your early departure from us, I would prefer to focus on the good and best things happened when you were still with us. HIS plans for you is ALWAYS the best. However, even if you're physically absent, I'm still laud of reminiscing your memories even if I told myself to let you go, yet doing this has always been comforting. I feel proud because people knew how great you are and how your deeds inspired many of your colleagues. They even wished that there will be more people like you. Yet for us, you are just simply you - kind, supportive, loving, funny, generous, hardworking, cool and has a deep patience. I couldn't ask for more of you because my heart is already filled of endless gratitude witnessing your legacy. Thank you for the good memories and inspiration, Pang!

And before I'm closing this post, I wish you to hear me singing this song for you.

 Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me
And then
Spin me around 'till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk
Another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother
Would disagree
To get my way I would run
From her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
yeah yeah
Then finally make me do
Just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance
When final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
Cause I'd love love love to
Dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how mama would cry for him
I'd pray for her even more than me
I'd pray for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much to much
But could you send her
The only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But Dear Lord
She's dying to dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

I hope to dance with you again, Pang! ♥

Forgive me for this chosen photo. But I find this pleasing. Such an ordinary man!

Whatta Friday!

photo: I "Google" it.

Dear Earthquake, 

You used to visit us rarely and always in a short span of time. You bring us sudden burst of different emotion most often fear, nervous, panic, shaking, wobbling, terrified, pain (headache), scared and worried. We don’t know how to stop you since you’re so unpredictable and since before you were already existed. We do acknowledge your purpose though it’s quiet hard to fathom if it is either good or bad. Plus, we don’t know how to interpret your existence for you usually give us gigantic damage of our property not counting that result of your aftershocks. We also tend to lose some our loved ones that feed our heart with deep sorrow. So, Mr. Earthquake I am appealing you tonight, please be good even if you gave us 7.9 magnitudes already. I wish you won’t bring any tsunami effect.

On a lighter note and this is also reject the “in-denial thing” in me and to convince myself that still everything is under control, here’s what I realized while I was trying to feel the cadences of the seism earlier:

1.       Am I ready to die?

2.       What did I do with my life?

3.       Did I live my life to the fullest?

4.       Did I do everything what I want to do?

5.       Did I make people happy?

6.       Did I help those in need?

7.       Did I ask forgiveness to those people who I hurt?

8.       Did I show compassion?

9.       Did I give love enough?

10.   What I’m gonna do if I’ll have another chance? How am I gonna live and use it?

This is more on self-reflection. I don’t know. My mind is just amused with that experience. I hope everyone is safe. Let’s all pray.

Love

-Van

A Gifted Tuesday!

Allow me to cite this post to a famous adage of Paulo Coelho in his book The Alchemist: The Fable About Following Your Dream, "When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

I supposed to catch some rest because I didn't have enough rest few days ago especially last night but my mind is loaded with so many words that basically of course I need to unload in order for me to have a good rest after. Do I make sense? Okay, here we go... Earlier today, we just had our "Giftedness Identification and Intervention Seminar Part II" at Rajah Park Hotel. It was successful in the sense that we were able to address the topic clearly to our audience and personally, I learned a lot. I was amazed by the speakers' talk. I was magnified and overwhelmed by the friends' support outside EC2. I was blessed by the participants presence, their ability in listening and their attention span. I was in tune by my colleagues working attitude to make the event a successful one.

The half tarp

The EC2 team

 On the other hand, there were some part of the event that I thought to have an improvement. Personally, I need it. I realized, I lack marketing skills. I lack strategy. I even lack communication. I wasn't able to achieve my target participants though. I had trouble meeting deadlines and dealing with people's differences. But these realizations doesn't stop me of learning new things, of acquiring those skills I didn't have in coming days and of evaluating myself. I want some feedback. I would love suggestions. I'm excited to hear criticism - constructive. I look forward for the assessment by Teacher Ray and of my teammates. This is not just about the event, but this is about building my own self better.

Right now, if you will ask me how I feel? I am just GRATEFUL! I am HAPPY! I am BLESSED!

Grateful, happy and blessed because of the people around me. I can't help it but recognize them and their contributions of my present feeling especially in achieving the success of the above-mentioned event. My EC2 family, T. Ray, T. Mimi, T. Yami, T. Yanyan, T. Mod and Ivy, things aren't perfect. There's no such thing even. But even if we have individual differences, I still consider you guys as something I cannot take for granted. Each of your personalities give me the chance to grow and learn every time we sit down and talk about our lessons, our lives, EC2 stuffs, our personal and different encounters, our nonsense topics, our funny and laughing moments and our open forum. I may have some pessimistic opinions about you, to be honest but it doesn't mean I'm dealing with it most of the time. I preferably want to tag it "learning your attitude" every single encounter.

Moving on, my friends in Elim community such as Ate Karen Barte (our emcee) and Ate Faith who showed spiritual support and some of my friends in Elim way back in Danao, thank you guys for your prayers and intercession, I know by heart that you are praying for me and I cannot pay you for that. Patrick Bacalso for the design poster.

Dude, who helped and saved me in one of my pressured and "cramming mode". Those emailing moments late at night just to have my favors done were being treasured and again, I don't know how to pay you in return. Himoa lang ko og labandera for 1 day Dude, hehehe. You are a wonderful person not because you helped me but because behind your busy schedule is a deep personality whose heart is set to help others in any ways that you can.

Hmmm and lastly, I wish I can hug YOU physically Lord and tell YOU right to YOUR eyes "Thank You". I am happy! When things got in trouble (almost lang), I knew it, my conviction told me, that YOU will  always give ways and means. *crying

To end this, I wish to have all of you being mentioned in this note collaborating again on something that I can't tell in the next chapter of my "Book Of Life" called "Organizing Events". ^^

Along with the lessons I acquired out of that experience was also the fact that it was my first big event being handled. It hyped me to the highest level.LOL

The Brilliant Speakers

Mr. Gestalt Wellness Institute

The amazing audience

The EC2 team with Mayor Michael Rama

Photo credit to Ray Nobleza and Ivy Casiño. :)

Letting Go Some Clutter

Have you ever had a time where things get so crazy, friends were so busy and problems arise little too noisy? So much and so much that you can't even hear and see yourself doing better. 

It's always been a wonderful agenda to spend some quite time for yourself every now and then. You don't need to spend a lot or go to places far from your usual place for one day. 

I know how important it is to me already... and I wish it will be yours too! 

The fact that we know already what's this topic all about and we have our own different ways on how to let go something yet something is being neglected... I think... and before I'm going to continue this post, I would like to emphasize the word "disclaimer".

- letting go of the pain -

Whatever kind of pain we have, learn to let go of it. The beauty of recognizing our present feeling is what makes us accept the reality that we are in pain and there isn't anything wrong with it. But let's take responsible, it shouldn't be forever. I mean, we can take time to grieve then learn to rise up and fix our self.

- letting go of all pretentious -

You are what you are. Even twins are different. Make use of the uniqueness you have. Learn to let go of that pretentious stuffs that hinder yourself to do what you supposedly do. Learn to spread your wings confidently and fly the sky freely. In this way, good things will come your way easily. 

-letting go of your emotions

Different emotions! Happy, sad, hatred, joy, freedom, doubt, fear, in love, scared, etc. etc. Whatever it is, express it and be present on the particular feelings you have every moment. Chances are, you won't have time dealing with your grudges overnight.

-letting go of unimportant events or even people

There's nothing wrong of saying "no" of an invitation. If you don't feel like going, don't go! If you don't like the person, don't be! It's okay to choose. It's okay to refuse! And it is very much okay to eliminate unimportant people. Learn to exercise your freedom to choose. But don't be so nice following other people's choice or wants for you. It's always your account. 

-letting go of being close-mindedness

Be open for everything especially for the changes. It's the only permanent is this world. Try to unlock your heart for anything that is possible to happen in your life and learn from those past and ugly experiences you had. When you're free, you're also trying to avoid stress.

We know these things already but we aren't practicing and applying it to ourselves. Watch out from those little distractions, be careful and take care of your peace of mind.

Happiness is present always, we just have to choose and embrace it.

LOVE is...

Love is . . . Being happy for the other person when they are happy, Being sad for the person when they are sad, Being together in good times, And being together in bad times.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF STRENGTH.

Love is . . . Being honest with yourself at all times, Being honest with the other person at all times, Telling, listening, respecting the truth, And never pretending.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF REALITY.

Love is . . . An understanding so complete that you feel as if you are a part of the other person, Accepting the other person just the way they are, And not trying to change them to be something else.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF UNITY.

Love is . . . The freedom to pursue your own desires while sharing your experiences with the other person, The growth of one individual alongside of and together with the growth of another individual.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF SUCCESS.

Love is . . . The excitement of planning things together, The excitement of doing things together.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF THE FUTURE.
Love is . . . The fury of the storm, The calm in the rainbow.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF PASSION.

Love is . . . Giving and taking in a daily situation, Being patient with each other's needs and desires.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF SHARING.

Love is . . . Knowing that the other person will always be with you regardless of what happens, Missing the other person when they are away but remaining near in heart at all times.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF SECURITY.
LOVE IS . . . THE SOURCE OF LIFE !

~ Susan Polis Schutz ~

 Source: http://www.upload.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=465387130140779&set=a.368934739786019.96999.205187966160698&type=1&theater 

EverGreen Literature facebook account

Moving Forward in EC2

Time flies really fast! Everything I dreamed of last year happened little by little this year. My heart was set on to it. My goals were align to every decisions I made. I did a lot of hard work. I sacrificed a lot. There were times when another things tried to switch on the plans, but I stuck to it. I stood it. And now, I'm in the place where I dreamed and prayed of - Exceptional Children's Education Center (EC2).

The environment in the school is very new to me. The children, the ways how to handle them, the kind of attitude I must show them, the words I must speak... almost everything. In short, I must be firm, consistent and precise. At first, I knew I should do a lot work until when the first week of Summer class in EC2, then I realized, this isn't going to be easy!

But my determination to improve myself, to learn a lot and to widen my perspective pushed me to go through it. My job in the school is quite challenging for me, but again my heart is already set on to it. My mind is very open to explore everything about the world.

I'm blessed enough to have colleagues like T. Mimi, T. Yami, Yani bb, Ate Jackie and of course T. Ray, the school director to have a kind of environment that is nurturing and open. Their presence really affects my work and the quality of life I have at this moment and will have in the future. T. Mimi who is very kind, has a wide knowledge about handling precious children, humble and a good person/friend/Ate. She helps me grow in the field of teaching kids. T. Yami who is generous of her time, talent and treasure all about in the school. I appreciate her so much that despite of giving up her main task in the school which is already mine, she is still there to help me out. Yani bb who has dreams exactly the same as my dreams, is my precious buddy. The journey I have with you is always memorable. Ate Jackie who is quite but loud gives me a kind of impact that nobody can do. And T. Ray who I think is, perfectionist just like me a little, straight-forward, generous in sharing about everything he learns in life, and has a vast-range knowledge about academics. Wow! He's oozing that kind of stock area in his brain. Truly, the people around you will affect the kind of life you want to be.

More over, as of last week, we had our culminating program. Too soon we realized that Summer Class was over and we will miss the kids. Too soon regular class in June will start. Too soon we will be busy again. And too soon, we will work and help each other in shaping every kids' future.

Credit to the Facebook Account of EC2 for these photos!

My Teaching Philosophy

Photo by Google

"Teaching is a noble profession." "Teachers are agents to our future." "Teachers are facilitators of the learning process.".....

Those are just few of the famous lines I heard from the my teachers about being a teacher which made me realize that "teaching" can yield amazing result when right ideas and beliefs are implemented in the classroom and when all these important ingredients are present in the recipe of the learning process, the learners will surely have its good taste of the future. 

I personally have my own beliefs and ideas when it comes to teaching. As for me, I believe that teaching is not just all about giving facts or theories to the learners or pushing them to memorize something, or depending solely on textbooks, or feeding all the needed information and etc. It is indeed all about letting the learners understand the whole concept of the topic, encouraging them to have pleasure in understanding, to develop them their holistic ability and to be open-minded.

I also believe that as a teacher I must have a strong and solid knowledge about the learning process. I must know what to teach. I must master the subject matter. I must seek other sources and materials used to aid in my teaching. I must not depend more on memorization of facts or theories but rather apprise them to comprehend for better learning. Compassion for the learners is also needed so that they will be encouraged from time to time especially if some things are difficult for them to grasp.  

Moreover, I must be a facilitator in my classroom. And as a facilitator, I must guide my learners through the subject matter in order to assist them in their own discoveries. I must allow then to have hands on activities so they can learn at their best. The constructivist learning theory in which I also believe with the fact that learners can construct their own learning in the classroom "learning by doing". Furthermore I must also be a disciplinarian. It will be such a nice feeling if someday you will see your learners successful in the area that they choose and they will thank you for your contribution in their lives. That’s fulfillment! 

On the contrary, I know that I must be aware of how to be more effective in my teaching. I know that there are many strategies available to use in teaching yet no one fits all the content. So, I must work hard on how I am going to deliver the subject. Though I don't have that ideal voice good for a big class which I know is very important however, I know that with the proper approach and command of teaching, learning will be more fun and effective.

So, that's it, somehow maybe, we are the same. 

I want to be a teacher! My desire is to teach. If I won't be in this area, I rather not in anyone.

Inspiring^^

I supposed to doodle the journey I had today merely because I believed it was also inspiring however, I bumped suddenly to this post in my facebook account via My Attitude - My Life - My Rules and made me realized that this is more inspiring than my story today.  

http://m.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=329235087114380&id=167821829922374&refid=13&m_sess=1GNZEP-m0ZqfDXW&_rdr#329235917114297 

The Elephant Rope

As a man was passing the elephants, he suddenly stopped, confused by the fact that these huge creatures were being held by only a small rope tied to their front leg. No chains, no cages. It was obvious that the elephants could, at anytime, break away from their bonds but for some reason, they did not.

He saw a trainer nearby and asked why these animals just stood there and made no attempt to get away. “Well,” trainer said, “when they are very young and much smaller we use the same size rope to tie them and, at that age, it’s enough to hold them. As they grow up, they are conditioned to believe they cannot break away. They believe the rope can still hold them, so they never try to break free.”

The man was amazed. These animals could at any time break free from their bonds but because they believed they couldn’t, they were stuck right where they were.

Like the elephants, how many of us go through life hanging onto a belief that we cannot do something, simply because we failed at it once before?

Failure is part of learning; we should never give up the struggle in life.

Thank you to the group Alternative Thinking for this post

ME and The 10 Things

Describing ones own personality is really hard. For me, the only person who can describe us are those people who have been with us for a long time like family and some closed friends who have been with us through thick and thin. Just like what Eleanor Rooseverlt, a famous author, "People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built."  Just like me, I won't be able build the traits I have at present if it was not because of the different experiences I had in the past and it helped building myself better mundane. I don't know why but these are some of the 10 things ME and the "________" photos in-line with tonight's post.

1. Me and the CHOCOLATES

Chocolates from someone special in the past. It represents life's sweetest memories of family gatherings, happy acquiantances with friends and some sweet-smelling encounters with a person closest to out hearts. He gave this to me because he knew that I love chocolates a lot and because he just came home from working abroad. There's always a great blessing when you give. Appreciation should be showed when someone gives us something even if we don't like it that much.

2. Me and the HEADBAND and GLASSES

When I started my life here in the city, I also started to learn how to take care more of myself like, getting dressed well, choosing an appropriate clothes for me, I mean better ones now, and buying some "kikay" stuffs like this pretty headband.The glasses that I used to wear now to see things clearly. It's like taking one step at a time, slowly but surely with clear vision that the decision is good and that will bring brighter tomorrows.

3. Me and the MONEY

Along with those physical changes I've done to myself, I also learned to budget, save and prioritize the things I needed to with my earnings.

4. Me and the SEA

Ever since I really like to go to the beach not because I want to swim, I should say I can't swim. But because it relaxes and refreshes me. If things go wrong and when I need time to think, I used to go to the beach or any place which has an overview of the sea. The waves are like trials in which I need to overcome. Luckily, when I try to look back, I am proud to say, I surpassed yesterday's trials and became a more profound individual.

5. Me and the GIANT HARP

One of my frustrations is to learn how to play an instrument. I always feel envious seeing my friends or family members who can play instrument. I feel like I was being deprieved of the chance to learn it but of course, I know that there are things that aren't good for me at the specific instances. Though I don't know anything about it, I am still dreaming that one day, I'll be able to learn even just the basic.

6. Me and the ZIPLINE GEAR

I realized that heights isn't that scary for me. Taking risk in life sometimes is like giving yourself a try on the doubtful things you know. Holding on to your beliefs and letting yourself continue to shine in the areas you know you are fully-geared up with all the casualties of life to pull you up.

7. Me and the BIKE

Learning how to bike at 25. Possibly can or can't? It's not yet too late to learn things we want to and it will always not too late to change wrongs decisions we have in the past.

8. Me and the FAVORITE HOBBY

I love sleeping. My friends know that.When irrirations strike up unexpectedly, the only cure is to rest. No side effects but surely after taking it for quite some time, you'll be better.

9. Me and the GROUND

Whatever happens I want to stay my feet on the ground. Nothing is worth to be proud of except doing good things for others. School achievements, beauty or wealth aren't the only things to boast. Character is the only thing I have.

10. Me and the 25th BIRTHDAY CAKE

I celebrated my silver year at the office because it was a regular working day. I was happy though. The most important thing happened to me was to realized that I am getting older and grateful. Every year I always look forward to celebrate my existence and to know the different changes that take place.

All Cheers for 2011... A Toast for 2012 ",))

It has been a blessing to me since the first day of 2011 and I can't keep my eyes close knowing that few hours from now, this year will be over. A lot of unexpected things happened, life's twists and turns, a roller-coaster ride of relationship, a major misunderstanding of friendship and abundant blessings here and there. Yet most of them gave me different feelings such like; pain, doubts, touched, amazed, tame, burst me in tears, abrupt and so on- in short I had mixed emotions. From family, friends, to work, different relationships and other outside yet personal commitment. However, on a lighter side it fed me with varieties of lessons I couldn't ignore. Those lessons helped me become who I am today and more than anything else I am grateful of such experiences.

Let me tell you what major things happened to me during this entire year.

As I remember, nothing so special about this month. I mean, there wasn't anything that caused me to worry or be blown away and distracted. I must say, I started my year right.

I felt both in love and out of love during this month because I was ready to face the coming of the person I assumed to be my prince. I was in love with my relationship I had with "bhe". I was okay when he was on board (I mean we were okay) last year of May. At first everything went well, he asked me to wait and I waited. But a couple of months still at 2010, I received an unexpected and unclear message  from him which brought me to swift the way I considered him, that he will be no longer my beau when he will come. It was very painful because it was hanging and the fact that we couldn't communicate well due to distance and the high cost. I admit, coping up and moving on were really hard and even harder because I had so many unanswered questions. I was then out of love, disappointed and completely devastated. But then, I know I have to continue the life I want to live like. So with the help of some great friends that continues to shine  with their encouragement, going back on the tract was as easy as 123.

March, bhe's birthday and his return. I was really fine. Though I was trying to hold my desire of not seeing him and of burying all the questions I wanted to ask. For the last trimester of last year, I told myself already to forgive him and laid at rest all that had happened between him and me. He was then trying to communicate with me to fix things right yet in me, I was controlling not to entertain because I was hurt and as much as possible I didn't want him to see me crying in pain. At the end, I decided to finally meet him once and for all to talk and to clear things up. It wasn't easy. After the emotional meeting, I was found myself at peace and free. I learned to let go of those feelings and was happy then.

My major exam... my birthday... and my trip to Bohol. This month I realized that with prayers and faith anything is possible even the most impossible things for human being. God answers! and God really answered mine. At this month, I realized to take things slowly. I mean, taking time to decide on something I want to do for myself. After the trip to Bohol which gave me so much fun and was full of lessons learned through the Singles National Conference about Man-Woman, I had time to think about myself and the people around me more. Realizing their importance and wants in life. I had better understanding about them.

Discovering stranger! Summer season! Nothing so special except that I came to know Mr. Aniban, an Elimite that I knew first during the last month of conference in Bohol. He was such a good person and I was really blessed when I got to know him a little accidentally. Another thing, I honestly also had a short-term relationship with a super kind person. Unfortunately, I felt sorry because it was too short but the separation was for our own good - for now! Too late then I realized. On the other hand, this month was also the birthday of the person I do not know personally and she is either. However, I admit that this person inspired me to write again and express everything I want to say. I read her blogs and most of her sentiments are also mine. She's a smart cookie and I admire her with all her achievements because somehow I also want to achieve what she had for we both in the same line - teaching! I somehow feel envious. Yet, I know that God has something reserve for me to do and I totally understand that I have other journey to walk. I just want to thank this person "Emalyn", because she inspires me and I was/am blessed with everything I know about her. May God bless her even more!

He came back!
Minding all the things happened months ago, bhe came back. It wasn't that easy and quick. I took time. Though the feelings were still the same but I took time. The communication was constant. I was confused. That was the only thing I knew about me at that time. Anyway, so much for that,  Ate got her job this month also and she was extremely happy for it was her dream job and the place. Good for her! My younger siblings are about to graduate. Three (3) of them lack only 1 more year. So, budgeting was my main concern. Happy for them anyway!

We were together again! 22nd of this month to be exact when I made a decision to be with bhe the second time around. They said it will be sweeter hahaha yet I will say, it wasn't that sweeter. I was happy being with him. I was happy because he won me back. I was happy because he made effort. He communicated constantly. At that time, I felt very important amidst all the negative thoughts I had back in my mind. However, never those thoughts won. My heart and feelings prevailed. I must say, it was the best thing happened to me this month. The feeling of being in love and be loved was the happiest.... I had also my eye checked and was advised to wear glasses now.

Papa's first month of not working anymore and it was also during this month when he experienced severe attack of his asthma. It was extremely terrible. Repeatedly, I couldn't imagine him being in that situation if we weren't have all those blessings of money for the entire medication just to get him well. It was our first time seeing papa suffered a lot. Each time I saw papa, I felt broken because I knew how he tried himself to live and to catch his breathing just to be alive still. Mama at that time was really supportive. She never left papa's side in a single minute and she was the one who took care of him very well. After almost a month, he was getting better. Then, I realized my parent's hard work and love for each other. They both deserved to be rewarded. The prayers of many people helped him get well.

The most unforgettable month this year! So much tears flowed, so much heartaches, so much pain yet it was so much a lesson to learn. Everything happened to me this month were all first time and recovering from a delirious health situation wasn't that easy. I couldn't believe it. It was really a bitter pill to swallow. After all, I was still grateful. I just don't want to hold any grudges or bitterness though the scars and trauma will always be here. Then, I decided to set my sights on doing all the things I want to.  This time, all I want is to forgive, if I can - I want to forget it and to love even the most difficult and unacceptable thing for me. I wish to love. I wish to accept. I wish to understand. 

Planning! It's time to end! It's time to move on! It's time to embrace new things! and it's time to plan for a better and brighter future! Wow!... Switching directions and plans have been in my mind this month. I want to pass the board next year, I want to run again, I want to stop my morning shift, I want to work something different - a place, a classroom situation already or anything as long as it's different by next year and I want to go back studying. Everything shifted after last month and all I have is hope and faith in the Lord that by His grace, all these things will be possible.

Papa's better health condition and a fine me! This was also my last month of serving Elim Singles as Promo/Docu Servant Head. It was so sad and happy. Sad, because I will surely miss everyone in this ministry including the pressures, meetings, deadlines, videos, planning, co-servants, dwellers and everything about the ministry. Leaving them wasn't that easy for me. Yet, I'm happy, because I know I'm moving forward for a better place to do different service.  November was a month of decision for I was already in my new place before this month ended. The place was an answered prayer. :)

Last month! Excited me!
I had a different Christmas and New Year. Before this month will close, I already filled for April 2012's board exam and had my last eye check for this year.




With all the things happened to me, all I want to say is "THANK YOU" to all the people who had been a part of me through thick and thin or by accident. Yow, the one who cheered me up when I was really down, confused, bothered, hurt, in pain, in difficult trials in life and in almost everyday of my life. Yani bb whose presence in the office is undeniable. T. Lou, T. Hilfe, T. Cris, T. Florence, T. Rydna, T. Lana, T. Rogie, T. Alma, T. Sheila, T. Des, T. Cheriza and the rest of the new batch of teachers in K & P, thank you. I won't be able to work like the way I work if you're not there as well.  Kuya Danny, Ate Divine, Ventot, Dodong Ace, Kuya Eric, Kuya Randy, Ate Jean, Ate Steph, Ate Daisy, Ate Zabeth, and Donna, my friends in the ministry who lifted me up when I am oppressed. Kuya Boie and Ate Wilma, servant heads in Elim Carmen, who in one way or the other encouraged me continuously. Ate Faith, my faci whose guidance and words serve as my inspiration in doing all God's plan for me one at a time and who taught me to be in God's presence all the time. Jing, who gave and shared a lot of presence and unforgettable moments to me this year and who contributed one of the grandest tests in life. I know and I strongly believe that God has something for me to learn why all those things happened in this year. Most of all, even if I was in a roller coaster ride of emotions, I want to end this year with a great smile not just on my face but as well as in my heart to show that everything in me is okay now. 


To entertain the other side of the coin, I told myself to let go of all those negatives vibrations for it does no good in my life if I will continue to live with it. To forgive is another main concern and to surrender those things I can't keep for long.  This what I realized, sometimes, we are all caught up in the idea of pleasing everybody but in the end, we are the ones who are unhappy. It's not wrong to follow your heart or to defy all the odds. Live your life the way you want it to be, share it with someone you want to spend the rest of your life with, because after all, more than anything else, the general rule is pleasing the Almighty and not fearing the second rate opinion of somebody else.


And to everyone who has been my comforter, adviser, friends, lover, colleagues, buddy, enemy hahaha "SALAMAT KAAYO". May all of you will have a prosperous New Year. 2011 wouldn't have been this colorful, fun, exciting and challenging without you. So, before this year takes its course, I want to have my first step for the next year by letting you know that, for all those times that you've been with me, those were the happiest and the most memorable. Let me apologize also for the occurrence for being in my indifference, tactless sometimes and for being insensitive. I really appreciate so much of your presence. Nothing can compare your indisputable and unquestionable "you". Kamsahamida for being part of my 2011 book of life and hope to see you to my next pages in 2012 a lot better. Happy New year everyone! May God bless you with His tidings of love!

All cheers for a great 2011 and A hopeful toast for 2012 ^^

Photo Source: Google