Life's Drama

When there's an exit and farewell, there's also an entrance and hello.

People come and go. It's very obvious that there isn't any assurance that they stay forever in our lives and even the members of our family. Some bid farewell and have to leave the house because they are indulge to another journey of life which demands their full attention. So the absence will be normal as the days go by.

Why we have to leave? Why do we have to spend lonely nights and crying because it's hard to give up and adjust? Why can't we just stay forever? 

These past few days my mind rolled up with so many words, concerns, plans and farewell with some friends. I was really quite. Quite - because I didn't know what to think first, what to consider first yet all I know, I understood why things happened.

Saying goodbye is really hard. It's painful. Ouch! Some deals with it longer time like weeks, months or even years. However, goodbye is not always a negative feeling and event. Sometimes it's the best. Just like a on-and-off relationship, I think goodbye is the best thing to do. Another is, an unsure relationship. Bidding goodbye to vices is the best example here. Turning the negative to positive one, that's really wow! 

I can say that my heart is still not used to of this situation. Although I know how to be independent and stand alone but losing someone is still like a roller coaster ride for me. I still cry over it. I believe my heart is not yet used to in this agenda. I don't want to be selfish by keeping them as long as I want or argue because they will leave instead I want to understand. Then, I understood.

The hardest is when I realized that I'll be alone again. I mean, finding someone whom you can rely on with everything you have and with who you really are is difficult. I hate to say but especially in here - the city. :( It seems like I'm starting again to mingle, getting to know each other, introducing oneself and blah blah blah. I don't know why I'm writing this and my purpose of doing this. I don't even know what's this all about. If it is about farewell or the pain of losing a friend. Hay! Can I be sad for a moment?

Just bare with me, I'm just taking my drama pill tonight. All I know is I understand why all these things are happening to me. If someone closes his doors, another is opening out there. Some says goodbye, another is saying hello. A friend is taking the exit, possible friend is about to enter the entrance. The same with ups and downs, positive to negative, pros and cons, happy to sad, abundant to scarse and so on.

So it's okay. Life is still worth living amidst all these things. They're part of life. We won't be able to taste the sweetness of life is there isn't any sour. It's good to feel better when some things aren't in our control. Proceed and move on, that's all we have to do.